| The patient is a woman born in 1959: "I am in a hopeless situation. My life is stagnating. My son has an ADD diagnosis, and so I have read a lot about this topic. I recognise myself in the picture of ADHD(1). I take in too much and have stored too much inside me. I am very sensitive and extremely receptive to external stimuli. I hear, see and smell more intensely than others; everything seems too loud, too bright or too sharp to me. I can feel other people's energy. It's as if I flow into others, and then too much comes back to me. When there are many people around me or there is too much bustle, I take in far too much and lose myself; then I have to withdraw quickly." | |
"It just happens, I couldn't will it on. When such things come from outside, a great confusion arises in me. I become forgetful and get lost in my own chaos. When everything becomes too much, I try to bring some structure into my life, but I don't know how to do that!" "On the one hand I have many impulses and can be very enthusiastic; but then I often react like a headless chicken. On the other hand I can be completely without drive. It is an affective disorder: either I am really engaged or completely apathetic. The psychiatrist recently diagnosed me with ADHD; I recognise myself exactly in the picture of adult ADHD." "I have no filter. I hate the idea of having to take psychotropic drugs. I have taken Ritalin a few times, but it turned me into a zombie. Everything bored me and it was like a fog in my head. My mind no longer obeyed me; I was slowed down and had absolutely no impulses. I felt like I was in a narrow, colourless street, a terrible state. It is so terrible for all the children who have to take Ritalin and cannot explain how they feel."
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She had worked as a nurse on a psychiatric crisis intervention ward. It was very demanding work, with a lot of research carried out and new regulations frequently having to be implemented. As the only woman she felt oppressed and pushed into an outsider position. However she "blew through" all the obstacles, even when she was pregnant with her son. When she returned to the clinic after maternity leave, she shortly afterwards had a complete burnout; she ultimately had to stay at home and live on sick pay. She likes to dance and can release her tensions in this way. |
"When things need to happen quickly the chaos comes and the impulses multiply. It's as if everything speeds up! Since I have been doing yoga, I have more contact with myself again, but for me it is still just 'hokus-pokus'. I am a lively, associative, creative and mobile person." During the conversation her arms move out in all directions. I ask her to repeat the movements. She replies: "That is my nature: there is a core, but it bursts apart like a cluster bomb or like fireworks. It's as if my centre splits and explodes." |
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All my life I have fought an invisible enemy. I need a suitable place where I can finally rid myself of my feelings of guilt that always pursue me when something doesn't work out, no matter how hard I tried. I always look for the cause of failure in myself and take responsibility for everything. I fought hard because I wanted to be different from how I am and that made me very unhappy." "Sometimes there is a quiet place inside me, like a valley; I can be like that too. It is quiet there, a lair, a small nest. |
| That is where I must search, that is the place where everything begins and ends. And I have always worked so insanely hard!" | |
Physical complaints: Poor sleep, superficial, frequent awakenings between 2 and 4 a.m. "Even in sleep everything affects me!" She wakes with tension throughout her body. Painful sacroiliac joint; often stiffness in the morning; arms go numb at night; heavy feeling in the left arm. Cardiac arrhythmias: "My heart races quickly and irregularly, every day!" Menopausal complaints: irregular menstruation, hot flushes, joint pain. Prescription: Californium nitricum C200, once every 2 weeks. Follow-ups After 2 months: Tell me about her "centre": "It is like a fluid-soft ball that holds together. Everything is inside, but it stays together! My inner flow of energy has become stronger and there is less chaos." After four and a half months: After one year: This is an enormous improvement, now I am fully present, even when there is a lot going on around me. Previously I had to concentrate on one thing, I had a kind of tunnel vision and then lost sight of the rest. But now I can keep an overview of everything at once and that feels really good. I am much more present for the children and that is good for them. My hormonal situation has improved; I have no menopausal complaints and no more hot flushes, my mood is good, I feel stable. My period is not regular now, but that does not bother me, neither before nor after. My muscles, which were often so tense, are less tight and no longer hurt. I have no more cardiac arrhythmias. I am in my centre and no longer lose my energy; it no longer shoots off in all directions as it used to. I work two days a week in a retreat centre(2) and give massages. I would like to work there more. I enjoy contact with people and I know that I do my work well. 6th follow-up: Californium nitricum Actinides:
Stage 12:
Nitricum:
Stage 15: Destruction, falling apart Nitricum according to Mahesh Gandhi:
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(1) Attention Deficit Syndrome |
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